I had to say goodbye to a 2 hour old baby today. To the nicest family. The first baby, the first grandbaby. A family that believes in god and highly involved in religion. The grandmother of the baby is like a mother to me and I am heart broken at such a loss. I can’t imagine being them and they were so strong today. I do not believe in god, how can I when I work with children who have been beaten, starved, left… parents who do drugs and choose boyfriends and who don’t want kids and I look at this family and I just don’t understand.